So because I'm so verbal about what happened to me and by whom, I have been shunned, verbally trashed, and down right disregarded as a human being. In their eyes? I AM NOTHING BUT A DOPE FIEND TRYING TO HURT EVERYONE IN HER PATH.
So it's hard. Very hard to not have the support I wanted. I wanted more of my family to back me up but sadly, that isn't going to happen. As I result, I have severed all contact with them for the time being. Down the road, when I've done some healing, then I may visit the notion of allowing them back in. But ONLY if they have changed their outlook of me. If they haven't, then they will no longer be in my life.
I've had 40 years of toxic people in my life. It's time to get rid of them all, and surround myself with loving, compassionate and understanding people. It is these kinds of people I now call my family. For without their love, compassion and understanding, I would be lost.